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Tak semua kau rancang akan berlaku
Mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku
Entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta
Mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja

Ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya
Ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku
Ini tidak adil
Untuk engkau bertanya jika ku mencintaimu juga
Tidak adil tidak adil baginya

Kau tak pernah cuba memahami aku
Cinta kau ucap tak pernah engkau tunjuk
Dan bila tiba saat ku kehilangan
Beban yang tak pernah cuba kau ringankan

Ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya
Ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku
Ini tidak adil
Untuk engkau bertanya jika ku mencintaimu juga
Tidak adil tidak adil baginya

Kau bukan milikku

Dan aku memang penakut
Mengakui cinta kepadamu
Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan
Bila bersamamu
Kau bukan milikku
Dan engkau pun tahu
Kau bukan milikku

- Yuna

p/s - This song, just reminded me of someone.....

Aku Permata

Terdampar jauh dihempas badai ku hanyut
Hati merintih terkunci mulut membisu
Perjalanan yang jauh bagai tiada sudahnya
Liku ranjau ku tempuh dalam mencari jawapan

Di sudut kecil hatiku sering berkata
Apa yang terjadi ada hikmah sebaliknya
Ku beranikan diri menongkah arus yang deras
Demi hari esok ku relakan

Walau tiada tangan menghulur
Kan ku tetap berdiri teguh ku bangkit semula
Tuhan, hanya engkau mengerti
Perjalanan hidup seorang insan

Kini ku jauh memetik bintang di langit
Berakhir musim dingin kini mekar bunga indah
Tinggallah memori terpahat di dalam dada
Terjawab sudah segalanya

Walau tiada tangan menghulur
Kan ku tetap berdiri teguh ku bangkit semula
Tuhan, hanya engkau mengerti
Perjalanan hidup seorang insan

Aku hanya ingin merasa
Kemanisan hidup di dunia yang kudambakan
Tuhan, hanya engkau mengerti
Perjalanan hidup seorang insan

Walau tiada tangan menghulur
Kan ku tetap berdiri teguh
Ku bangkit semula
Hanya titipkanlah doa
Agar permataku terus bersinar
Agar permataku terus bersinar

- Salma, Mentor

p/s - This song really test your vocal...really! Am i the gem?

Though i will be far, no worries...

The move is eminent...

As its gets nearer and nearer, it seems unreal. I just can't believe that i'll be moving away. Into a new job, new environment, new bosses, new colleagues...new everything! Though i'd prepared for it i.e. find a house, scheduled movers, went for familiarization, attended training, buy stuff and things to be brought over there....i just....hmm.....not ready.

I think once i moved, then the reality would hit me. Hopefully i'll not be too shocked and shattered.

For the last few weeks, i treat my days as if i would still be working in KL. My plan once there, was to come back to the city every weekend. The more i think about it, the more impossible it felt. 4 hours drive, a trip with tolls and other expenses. That 8 hours go and back. Can i afford the time and money? Wouldn't i feel tired and everything else which comes together with the trips?And the first 2 months would be Ramadhan and Syawal. I don't know. I would only know when i am there.

My friends said goodbyes to me last weekend. I replied, it wouldn't be a real goodbye as i would be returning every weekends and we usually hang out on weekends anyways. We would still hang. Just that i can't do dinners on weekdays like we do at times. I just can't, on a whim call and meet my friends. It'll have to be on weekends.

No worries, i'll be okay. I am fine with the move. I hope i won't be emotional on my last day this 27th. Hate goodbyes. I will be far, but my heart would always be in KL. I'll be calling and texting all the time. I might even create an FB profile just to keep in touch with them. Really......maybe not......who knows......anything is possible.         

A week of systems training...

The whole of last week were contributed for training...

I learn new things during the training. Need to get familiar with the system as quickly as possible. We'll be up and running starting this August. No time for a breather or anything. The Management expect us to be able to conduct the daily activities without a hitch from the get go, which is obviously impossible.

The thing is, though the system is easy enough to understand, i am not familiar with the works. It'll be slow and painful. Expect lots of mistakes in the beginning. Actually what i need is hands-on experience. Once i got to work and got a hang of it, it'll be smooth sailing. Give me a month or so, then it'll be okay. But with high expectation from the top, it'll be so stressful. Hopefully, the situation would be stabilized within 3 months. Taking over the departmental functions from the group of companies into one shared-service, would be a mess at first. Once stabilized, everybody should be happy.

Expect the unexpected... 

Fun with friends...

It was last Friday...

Well, me and a group of my friends went for a karaoke session at Loy Yat, KL. It was an ad-hoc event as the previous planned session last week was cancelled due to a rally. Whatever it is, the 8 of us had so much fun. It had been long since we had gathered and sing...he..he...We don't know when we would be able to get together like this anymore since some of us will be going to the East Coast.

We have our 'pengetua', kak OD together, the fun Su &, Pira, the gang Keliwon, Duke, Fariz and Pedet. Unfortunately Bella wasn't able to join. We started to leave for Low Yat at 6 pm, hoping that we would be there by 6.30 pm. Knowing KL and it was a Friday, the road was hell ansd it rained as well! We arrive at the destination by 7.45 for what supposed to be a 10 - 15 minutes commute. Pedet walked from office and he was there at 7 and had to wait for us.  

Thanks to the gang, i did had a great time despite the traffic there...

Ahmad

Hai Ahmad..
mmm… hoooo..
Ahmad.. mmmmm
Ahmad.. mmmmm

Pertama kali si aku malu-malu
Saat ku dekat ku ragu-ragu
Mungkinkah dia suka padaku
 

Ah Ah Ahmad..

Ternyata tanpa ku duga-duga
Aku terima salam darinya
Bergetar saatku membalasnya
Ah Ah Ahmad..


Dialah Idola
Dialah Superstar
Mampu menggetarkan ranah jiwa
Dia yang ku nanti
Selalu terpuji
Ingin ku dekat, selalu ku dekat..

Ahmad… Yang selalu dihatiku
Ahmad.. Luluhkan keangkuhanku
Ahmad.. Ingin aku cepat-cepat
Bercinta dengan lelaki paling hebat..

Ahmad.. Peribadinya sederhana
Ahmad.. Tiada banyak bicara
Ahmad.. Ku tak mahu lama-lama
Mendekat kepadaku dengan segera..

Ah Ah Ahmad..
Ah Ah Ahmad..
Ah Ah Ahmad..
Ah Ah Ahmad..

Ternyata tanpa ku duga-duga
Aku terima salam darinya
Bergetar saatku membalasnya
Ah Ah Ahmad..

Dialah Idola
Dialah Superstar (Superstar)
Dia yang ku nanti
Selalu terpuji
Ingin ku dekat, selalu ku dekat..

Ahmad… Kau selalu dihatiku
Ahmad.. Luluhkan keangkuhanku
Ahmad.. Ingin aku cepat-cepat

Bercinta dengan lelaki paling hebat..

Ahmad.. Peribadinya sederhana
Ahmad.. Tiada banyak bicara
Ahmad.. Ku tak mahu lama-lama

Mendekat kepadaku dengan segera..

Ahmad… Yang selalu dihatiku
Ahmad.. Luluhkan keangkuhanku
Ahmad.. Ingin aku cepat-cepat

Bercinta dengan lelaki paling hebat..

Ahmad.. Peribadinya sederhana
Ahmad.. Tiada banyak bicara
Ahmad.. Ku tak mahu lama-lama

Mendekat kepadaku dengan segera..

Ah Ah Ahmad.. Ahmad

- Aurora Salwa

p/s : I don't know why but i love this song....so....catchy!

Itulah Sayang (Tanya Sama Pokok)

                   Tanya pada pokok apa sebab goyang
                   Nanti jawab pokok angin yang goncang
                   Tanya sama langit apa sebab hujan
                   Nanti jawab langit tanyalah awan

                   Awan nanti kata aku kandung air
                   Sampai tempat sejuk aku pun cair
                   Tengok dalam air nampak bayang-bayang
                   Campak satu batu bayang pun hilang
 

Tanya sama hati apa rasa sayang
Adakah tandanya nampak dipandang
Kumbang rayu bunga, bulan dan bintangnya
Punya tanda-tanda hubungan mesra

Tanya sama hati pernahkah merindu
Tiba masa lena apa mimpimu
Masa berjauhan apa nan dikenang
Bila difahamkan itulah sayang

* Jikalau tidak kerana sayang
  Kuntuman kasih tak mungkin kembang
  Andainya jemu mengganti rindu
  Jambangan mesra tentulah layu

Tanya sama hati pernahkah merindu
Tiba masa lena apa mimpimu
Masa berjauhan apa nan dikenang
Bila difahamkan itulah sayang

- P.Ramlee & Normadiah

I am floating...

It's my work situation.I am not here neither there.

My division was under major reorganisation. That's why many of us were transferred or some just quit. The thing is, the reorganisation was effective early this month. All those who swap positions or had departmental merger or goes out of the organisation, the effective date was 1st July 2011. The thing is for the group of us who would be going to the East Coast, our effective date is 1st August 2011. So, for this 1 month we're floating...

It was lucky that our month was filled with trainings and preparation to go there. Even our current cubicles are taken over by other personnel because of the reorganisation. Where are we going to sit in between the transfer? How about our office telephone or our computer's LAN for this 1 month? There are no temporary place for us. I felt the Management just left us out. The 1 month gap shouldn't happen to ensure smoothness of the reorganisation and the transfer.

Some of us still has some work to be completed before moving on. The handover processes to new personnel need to be done. I'd completed my current task and now just idling about. I've already packed all my office stuff. Only waiting to move. For the last 2 days, i was wasting my time by playing games. I'd finished the game already. I was like....wow....what a waste of time. I should be doing something productive. But what could i do? I can't work on the new position as it'll only effective next month. I can't do much for my current work as my name is not the organisation anymore.

So this is me....for this month..........doing nothing....floating around..........

Went to the movies and watched Sekali Lagi...

Last evening, after work i went to watch a malay movie entitled 'Sekali Lagi' starring the most wanted actor at the moment Shaheizy Sam and the cute Mia Sara. 

Though the storyline need more work, i do like the overall feeling of the film. Sam really did it again. He is the factor that hold the film together and Mia is just a cute little girl.

Sam's acting really touches my emotion. My eyes were a bit watery when the film end. Don't want to do a review here. Just wanna say, i like the movie... 

Pulanglah...

Huu.....huu.....huu.....

Bukalah mata dan lihat di hadapanmu

Aku berdiri dekat tapi kau tak nampak

Hodohkah aku ‘tuk sering kau campak saja

Apanya yang dia ada yang aku tak ada

Mungkinkah aku yang tidak sekaya

Mungkinkah aku yang tidak bergaya

Haruskah aku pun tetap menantikan mu

Berikan jawapan

Pulanglah sebelum ku runaway

Aku menanti kamu everyday

Aku menunggu dari

Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday

Aku tak ingin tak perlu

Aku dah bingung

Pulanglah sebelum ku runaway

Aku menanti kamu everyday

Aku menunggu dari

Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday

Aku tak ingin tak perlu

Aku dah bingung

Aku berjalan di kota Kuala Lumpur
Semuanya nampak berbeza tapi ku sama

Mungkinkah aku yang tidak sekaya
Mungkinkah aku yang tidak bergaya
Haruskah aku pun tetap menantikan mu
Berikan jawapan

Pulanglah sebelum ku runaway
Aku menanti kamu everyday
Aku menunggu dari
Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday
Aku tak ingin tak perlu
Aku dah bingung

Pulanglah sebelum ku runaway
Aku menanti kamu everyday
Aku menunggu dari
Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday
Aku tak ingin tak perlu
Aku dah bingung

Mungkinkah aku yang tidak sekaya
Mungkinkah aku yang tidak bergaya
Haruskah aku pun tetap menantikan mu
Berikan jawapan

Runaway
Aku menanti kamu everyday
Aku menunggu dari
Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday
Aku tak ingin tak perlu

Pulanglah sebelum ku runaway
Aku menanti kamu everyday
Aku menunggu dari
Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday
Aku tak ingin tak perlu

Aku dah bingung

Pulanglah sebelum ku runaway

Aku menanti kamu everyday

Aku menunggu dari

Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday

Aku tak ingin tak perlu

Aku dah bingung

- Awi Rafael

p/s : Lagu nih besh.....

Lets begin...

To begin....

Introducing thyself...

Malaysian. Single. Male. Not a teenager. Work in oil & gas industry but not in technical sector. Born in Johor (JB to be exact), hometown in Malacca ( Alor Gajah that is) and currently parents in Selangor (PJ). Yup, i am a west coast child.

Soon would be moving to the East Coast. Work transfer. Not really hate it but yet not loving it...description of feeling...indifference. A new work description after 4 years of doing the same thing in KL. Drop by few times there. Thinking, might take some time to adjust to the work environment. Thank god it's not me alone going there. There are 16 of us from KL...ha...ha...ha...............................huuuu........

Anyways, I am the only boy among my siblings.Youngest with 2 older sisters. I have a degree in psychology with a local international university. Shamefully, not in use since i started work in the industry. However, i am involved in CSR programme. 'Corporate Social Responsibility' as in volunteering to be facilitators to the kids with the programme. I like to to fill my weekends with activities. I found that if i stay at home, i felt lethargic. Lazy to do anything. Ready to be a couch potato. Therefore, i am usually out of the house. Going for movies, 'karaoke'ing, bowling, or just go out to the parks. 

Well,  that is me as a beginning.......  

Friendster blog was shutdown....

I thaught that i still have time to make a copy of all my musings in my friendster blog to transferred to any blog provider. But shit happens.....lost it all. Lost all those stories...events....which i'd written. My fault actually, didn't realize that friendster was upgrading their services. They did sent me an email to transfer all the datas. Knowing myself, i put it to the last minute...turn out, i missed the dateline.

Anyways, from now on...this will be the place for me to share things. Stories.....song lyrics...a sentence...anything.

Will try to update as often as i could. Want to make this as an open diary to my life. I know not many would be interested to read this blog. Well, better to treat it as a personal space to say what i want to say.....